Christmas and Willing To Do Anything

Today is Christmas. I am at home, trying to distract myself with anything that will take my mind off of the fear of nausea and vomiting. Nothing is really working. I want to go to church tonight. I'm afraid to because I may be exposed to stomach flu germs. I'm becoming more and more paralyzed, and going to bed earlier and earlier in the evenings because I'm so exhausted from constant fear and worry. I may have to take Xanax, but I am really trying not to. I am going to see my psychologist again in a little under two weeks, and I going to tell her that I am ready to do ANYTHING to get over this.